I fell out with someone and I was infuriated.  I vowed that I would never allow them to mistreat me again.  I was walking away and slamming the door in their face.  This relationship was OVER!  So I wrote a poem about it!

Then time passed and I could see the errors of my ways as well as the shortcomings of the other person.  Anger dissipated and I looked at the individual in a different light.  We’re all just trying to do our best in this CRAZY world.

But what to do with the poem?  I like the poem and it’s a shame not to share it.  For me, my poetry documents time, experiences and emotions.  I was angry then and ready to walk away from a relationship to take care of me.  My feeling was that if a relationship is not serving you, say goodbye – so there’s a good message.  However, in this case, I feel a little differently about this person.

I’d like to share this poem ‘Heavy’ as 2018 draws to a close because I think it’s a good poem but more than that, because I’m only taking good vibes and love into 2019 and restored and positive relationships.  Until someone else upsets me!!!! LOL

 

Heavy

You

Are

Heavy.

Your weighted load does not

Alleviate the sorrow I endure.

As preferred vehicle

I am designated

Driven to despair

As I transport you to the extremity of comfort

Appalled by the enmity bestowed upon me

Stunned

For I would have selected to bear with you

To uphold your frame

Unceasingly

And yet we never arrive

To that destination

To that happy place

The goal posts have moved

“We’ll get there one day” – you say

As you re-position yourself

Tightening your grip around the fabric

Of my better judgement

Of my sensibilities

Digging your nails further into

My chipped coating

My broken shell

For extra support

It used to be simple

Now with forced fortitude

I sustain the strain

As you are grossly oblivious

To the gravity of your persistence.

 

Like a smooth pebble which sparkled in my gaze

I beheld you.

A gallant gem

Twinkling in the twilight

Affirming my presence

Dispelling the darkness

Lightening up alleys

Leading me to avenues

Through boulevards

Through conduits

Back to the sea.

 

I squealed when the water caressed my toes

Delighted to be so carefree

With you in my hand

As I waded through the water

I thought you’d be safer in my pocket

You anchored me

For my protection

Through storms, I was unmoveable

Although I did take some battering

Then I was ready to move.

I began to tread water

I noticed that you were stocky

I heaved you onto my back

Pressing onwards

Unsure of who’s team you were on

Was the objective to be submerged?

Or to make it to the other side?

 

You are on my shoulders

You are pressing me down

Your arms around my neck

I’m afraid I might die

Accidentally

Naturally

I hoist you in the air

Cradled above my head

You purr divinely

In satisfaction as you can see afar off.

 

I resurface from the water

On the other side

With you,

Glistening like a crown

Suspended above my head

Before the official coronation

I recall the water larking around my toes

I recall entering the water for a dip

I recall you progressively weighing me down

I recall going under numerous times whilst you stood over me.

So I would not be lost at sea

So we would know where to commence a search

So I would be eternally grateful

So we would commemorate you.

 

We resurface from the water

On the other side

With zero fanfare

Befitting

Of two non-entities

Adrift at sea.

 

We resurface from the water

On the other side

Through a Herculean effort on my part

To make it

To survive

To live

Some kind of meaningful

Some kind of wonderful

Existence

In harmonious accord 

With each other

With mankind

With divinity.

To unearth hidden treasure within each of us

Not to be discovered as hidden treasure on the bed of the sea.

 

We resurface from the water

On the other side 

With you aloft

Jubliant

Keen to do it all over again

Playing

The same role

Of dominant, over-bearing, insufferable

Fool

Believing that your strategy clearly worked

We made it to the other side

We were not lost.

But I did lose

The unnecessary

The unhelpful

The unhinged mind

I resolved to press forward

Somewhere in the deep, dark ocean.

Unburdened.

 

We resurface from the water

On the other side

I lay you down

I continue

Unburdened

For you are

Heavy.